worse

i falling apart

dont worry i wont hurt myself! am not those teenager ppl who is hurting themselves for attention!!

i just need some comfort

some1 to tell me its gonna be alright

no one can do anything to you...

you will be safe

but at the end

am telling that to myself      and i cant grantee it..

yes am afraid

my whole body is trembling

i cant hold a cup of coffee my hand is trembling   shaking i try to control it

and when i hold it with my five fingers it stopped   i feel the warmth of the coffe on the surface of the cup.... am stoned now i cant take a sip.. am afraid it will spill in my abaya!

so i let go of it

and i hold again and the same thing happens

then when i hold it for the forth time i feel more stable and i take a quick sip and i put the cup back.

after that am more stable in drinking my coffee

this is just something little of what am experiencing i thought it will end but no    it only got worse.