A friend once told me

"Its Ok To Be Depressed, Whats Not Okay Is To   

Do Nothing About It"

"Peter Pan" or The Boy Who Wouldn't Grow Up

Lately i have been relating everything that is going on in my life to Peter Pan belief in not wanting to grow up.

he did not want to grow up because he knew how reality is cruel and boring. therefore Neverland existed, it was a place where adventures were created and time was absent.

the story of Peter Pan was created by J. M. Barrie

Never wanting to grow up is what i need right now. because as time pass i see myself growing and becoming engaged in this world of adults, miserable adults.

all i see is pointless chatter.

I agree with wendy regarding to the fact she refused to go to Neverland with Peter, it is true, we cannot escape from our fate, we were meant to go through this harsh reality and going to Neverland won't make it any better.

but have you ever felt sick and tired? because am starting to feel this way all the time.

share you comments down below ^v^

worse

i falling apart

dont worry i wont hurt myself! am not those teenager ppl who is hurting themselves for attention!!

i just need some comfort

some1 to tell me its gonna be alright

no one can do anything to you...

you will be safe

but at the end

am telling that to myself      and i cant grantee it..

yes am afraid

my whole body is trembling

i cant hold a cup of coffee my hand is trembling   shaking i try to control it

and when i hold it with my five fingers it stopped   i feel the warmth of the coffe on the surface of the cup.... am stoned now i cant take a sip.. am afraid it will spill in my abaya!

so i let go of it

and i hold again and the same thing happens

then when i hold it for the forth time i feel more stable and i take a quick sip and i put the cup back.

after that am more stable in drinking my coffee

this is just something little of what am experiencing i thought it will end but no    it only got worse.